I AM GOING TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO LET MY DAYS BREATHE
I try to be private so I see many thoughts as ones that belong to my diary. To be honest it’s probably more that I feel like they aren’t worth sharing because you’re likely to have come to these conclusions yourself. But perhaps I should share them anyway. So today we begin with one. It’s about not rushing in life.
Leaving so soon girl?
There always seems to be a reason why I can’t stay somewhere for too long. Or why I can’t do something for too long. I can’t watch a movie in one sitting because I have things on my to-do list that I need to get done. I can’t stay at this event too long, at least without feeling on edge, because I live far from here and I don’t want to get home too late.
It was easier for me to be in a justified rush like this when I had a job. But now, I don’t. I have nowhere to rush to and on most days, no one waiting for me. So, for the first time in a while there’s little reason why I cannot wake up when my body wants to, watch a whole movie in one sitting or talk to someone for hours on end with no need to rush the end of the conversation.
But knowing this doesn’t mean I am putting it into practice. As I write, it’s Friday. I am sitting on my yoga mat in the garden, and the sun is out. I just did my 6-minute stretching routine and there’s no rush for anything today, really. I’m just meeting some people later. Why not just just take my time today?
Any solutions?
I am going to figure out how to let my days breathe. Take my time making my breakfast, sit down and chill when I feel a sudden urge to. Attention-span wise I know I can start by at least consuming more long form media because I’m not in a rush to get my serotonin up. I just need to take my time.
It’s a tough trait for me to learn but I know I will be better off for it. The same applies to figuring out what I want to do next in my life. If I could rush into it I would, to ensure financial stability as soon as I can – that’s my only worry now. So, I figured that if I find a way to rid of that anxiety and trust that this moment is just part of my journey, I can embrace this period of my life in a very beautiful way.
I watched a video last week where a woman spoke about not rushing in life. She said that if you do rush, you will get there sooner, sure. But you will be exhausted. That is not what I want. I want to get there when I need to and breathe along the way. So here I go.
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