Handling pain, valid pain

Apparently when I feel like I’m about to die, I scream.

 

When I decided to be a “writer”, I told myself that I’ll write from my own experiences because it will make all that I produce relatable, and all I want is for readers to relate to what I write about. I don’t necessarily aim to talk about what I have gone through, but to explore the thoughts that are triggered by what I have gone through.

Last week I was in a car crash, and my life did not flash before my eyes. I saw no white lights and I didn’t think of the things I should and shouldn’t have done. All I did was cover my face and scream.

However, the only reason I’ve mentioned white lights and life flashing before my eyes is because I’ve heard that this is what people see when they feel like they’re about to die. Apparently when I feel like I’m about to die, I scream.

We all deal with pain and fear differently. Some of us cry and some of us suppress it. Some of us tell people about it and some of us relive it over and over again.

So, I don’t think there is a right or wrong way to get through it. I think that I was just scared, so I screamed in order to handle that feeling.

And in the same breath, we receive various strains of pain as individuals. Sometimes we’re broke, and that hurts. Meanwhile, our friend has lost a relative. Or, we are having suicidal thoughts while someone is angry because they missed out on a concert ticket.

In situations like this, we can either see our pain as something small in comparison to others, or as something big instead, depending on the situation. Regardless, I believe it’s important to consider the fact that pain is pain. If you are not comfortable, you have the right to express it. Although this is relative to the setting you may be in at a given time, you can’t help but feel what you are dealing with.

God gives money to the broke and he heals the broken-hearted. He makes tickets available again and he makes your life worth living again. If he has the ability to do this, surely your pain was valid in the first place?

Pain should be acknowledged and dealt with in whatever way you feel, consciously and subconsciously. I think that as long as you deal with it, there is a way to see a future ahead of it.

New Beginnings

There’s more to life than love
And I am trying to find it,

to struggle in drawing my attention from paintings and gowns.

I want to reach mountain tops and cascade down hillsides
with nothing on my mind but natural pleasure.

In love, I mean – there’s more to life than that.

There are moments with friends
and mastering of theories,
Concepts yet to understand,
and new series

More to life than love.

I like to defy conventions and prove that’s okay.
We hold on to comfort ‘stop slipping away’

Yet there is significance to find in everything,
and this love journey has grown too familiar.